more specifically, I smell like this boy
and that makes me pretty happy
my life is a lot of projections over top a bit of insecurities; the projections draw people to me and at the same time stop them from getting entirely near me, which not many people open their eyes and see.
today for the first time a boy called me handsome and meant it and I almost melted, looking back I could almost cry with joy.
handsome, as opposed to striking, beautiful, etc. and all the things people say about how I've styled myself.
suffice it to say, the facial hair is here to stay for a bit.